Sometimes it's not as much about finding Jerusalem in the midst of dark Satanic mills as it is about looking for a corner where what is dark is comforting and what is Satanic seems agreeable. It isn't an admirable thing to do, it never has been, but for sheer adaptability you have my respect. It's too easy to open your mouth and let the world know of your intention to bring about a Change, it's far too easy. What I especially like is that you make mildness look like fun, but it's not like the visions don't exist, ergo your madness pips a lot of the other kinds of mad I know.